It’s been an intensely busy week for me at work and my evenings have been full as well. But it’s all good – I’m getting a lot done and not getting overwhelmed. And I deeply enjoy getting things done.
I’ve been fixing web pages left and right and managing projects like I was born to it. I’ve dealt with complex personnel issues with grace and compassion, taught people all kinds of new things about systems, and fixed deeply technical problems like the geek that I am. I’ve been kind and helpful, created some art I was proud of, and still had time for video games.
It occurred to me yesterday, as I was walking back to my office with a well deserved candy bar from the vending machine, that it would be nice if I could save this version of me.
‘Cause I know it won’t last. My confidence will falter and my patience will slip. I’ll lose that groove that has kept everything going smoothly and I’ll miss something important or just wear down.
Wouldn’t it be nice if I could just pull my back-up when that happens? As Fiona Apple would say:
“Here it comes, a better version of me”
One quick “load from save” and I’m back on top – saving the day and making things go right.
I kinda like this version I’ve got right now. He’s just…more present than I’m used to being.
There are more challenges ahead of me tomorrow and things won’t really slow down until well after the semester starts at the end of the month.
For now, I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing and try to hold onto this version as long as I can.