Today would have been Jeff’s 42nd birthday.
It’s been on my mind the past few days and I’d been trying to figure out what to do. Should I deliberately dwell on it – and try and work through some remaining issues? Or keep myself busy and distracted? The first seemed self-indulgent and depressing, the second seemed shallow. The internal debate got me worked up and I kinda broke down again. Took myself for a walk, got settled down a bit, and decided to come up with a third option somewhere in the middle. That being, keep busy and focus on good things about Jeff.
So, to that end:
1. I finally made contact with the financial company where Jeff had his 401k. After slogging through several 800 numbers, the worst hold music ever, and a cranky and confusing staff person – I finally reached a pleasant and helpful person who guided me through the process and is sending some paperwork for me to complete.
2. I called Jeff’s aunt and invited her to dinner tonight. Figured it would be a nice thing to do and good for both of us.
3. After dinner, I plan on calling one of Jeff’s sisters to see how she’s doing. Haven’t talked to her in a bit and a friendly voice might be a good distraction for her.
I’m also thinking about having my former neighbors over for a visit this weekend.
Feels like… maybe some closure. Small steps to move on.