Last Wednesday, met up with two other couples for a fancier meal than I’m generally used to. We were on schedule – but hadn’t factored in summer in Ohio – i.e. EVERY FREAKING ROAD WE WERE ON WAS A MESS OF CONSTRUCTION. I mean, seriously? W.T.F. And this included the turnpike – we should have gotten a discount for that mess.

Dinner was good (though I had to work to “bland it down” to my level) and the conversation was fun – but the day kinda caught up with me before we were done.

Saturday morning, I got up early and worked on the yard for a while. And then I laid out in the sun and just relaxed. I would have said “chilled” but it was super hot out and I just lay there and sweat. I’m not generally good at inactivity, but I think I needed it.

On Saturday evening, I had a really fun dinner with some of my very best friends. Good food, awesome conversation – made it fun for a bit to be an adult again. Not very serious adults, mind you, but adults enjoying an evening out. I made some origami flowers for the birthday girl and overall had a really nice evening.

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On Sunday, one of my friends brought over her grandson for an origami lesson. He’s nine and already knew some stuff – and was prepared to be bored with my beginner’s lesson.

Not one to be outdone, I took it up a notch and together we did some more complex modular pieces. And ate brownies. For over two hours.

My hands were a little tired and I think his brain was full from trying to remember all we covered. He wants to come back, though – think he found a kindred spirit.
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I’ve been trying to tweet more while still following my “only haiku” rule. It’s been challenging to distill something into that very small pattern, but I think it’s a good brain exercise. Of course, the most clever one I came up with didn’t show up on facebook so only my scant twitter followers saw it. It was a haiku – but with binary numbers! As Homer Simpson would say:

“Nerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd!”

Anyway, in case you missed it, Binary Haiku .

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For as much fun as I had over the weekend, I had a rough night Sunday. I had nightmares of being back in college and not knowing where or when any of my classes were. Nor did I have the right books or have any of the homework done, or know any of the professors.

Typical anxiety dream – followed up Monday by a stressful and stupid day. Much of the day was fixing problems that I had already fixed once before – including one that should have been wrapped up literally years ago.

In video game terms, I was ready to rage-quit several times. Just turn off the day and go do something else. I lasted until my usual quitting time and when I got home I got changed and laid out in the sun for about 45 minutes. Just me, my headphones (to drown out the traffic and neighborhood dogs) and my own patch of sky.

It helped, some, but I’m still so on edge. We still don’t know anything and pretty much anyone could be terminated to fit a spot on the budget.

So, I’m torn between trying to accomplish something significant in case I’m one of the ones that gets let go, not wanting to start anything really long term, and being ground down by the day to day.

One of the committees we’re on is working on a letter to the president of the university to ask for some clarification and a timeline. I kinda doubt we’ll get anything – there’s been plenty of opportunity for clarity – but I guess we need to feel like we’re trying.

Time to close up shop and hit the sack.

Just… tired.