I broke my watch.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was reaching into my pocket and missed, catching the edge of the watchband on my belt instead. There was a tiny snap and then the watch was hanging halfway off my wrist. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I took it the rest of the way off and realized the pin holding the watch to the band had snapped. This wasn\u2019t a \u2018quick-pop-it-back-into-place\u201d repair – it was broken.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And it really – really<\/em> – bothered me.\u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n I sat down with the broken pieces in my hand and considered the ruined timepiece. It was a great watch – waterproof, a nice shade of blue that went with all my blue shirts, digital (because I don\u2019t like guessing what time it is), and a good size that didn\u2019t make my skinny wrists look even more skinny.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I half-heartedly looked for replacement pins online, but when I looked more closely at the band to get the size I realized the plastic was damaged as well. A new pin wouldn\u2019t stay in place. <\/p>\n\n\n\n So, that was it. The watch was done.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Until I got a new watch, I would have to rely on other instruments to keep track of time. Which, I know, are everywhere. My phone, in my car, every computer, the appliances in the kitchen, and the clocks on the wall (analog, but I can make do). <\/p>\n\n\n\n But not the same. Not the same as that familiar and reassuring weight on my wrist. Always knowing at a glance exactly \u201cwhen\u201d I am. <\/p>\n\n\n\n A bit obsessive, granted.<\/p>\n\n\n\n For the past few days I\u2019ve caught myself checking my bare wrist. I\u2019ve looked at a few stores and gone online – not finding anything that really caught my eye.<\/p>\n\n\n\n And so I\u2019ve been a little bit\u2026off. And not quite sure \u201cwhen\u201d I am. <\/p>\n\n\n\n —–<\/p>\n\n\n\n This week also marks the anniversary of Jeff\u2019s passing – 10 years ago. <\/p>\n\n\n\n His brother texted me just to check in – we traded a few messages as we do until we both faded into each other\u2019s backgrounds again. There\u2019s never much to say, but we try.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I\u2019m noting the absence of the weight of time on my wrist – and feeling the weight of it in my head.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I broke my watch. I was reaching into my pocket and missed, catching the edge of the watchband on my belt instead. There was a tiny snap and then the watch was hanging halfway off my wrist. I took it the rest of the way off and realized the pin holding the watch to the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_exactmetrics_skip_tracking":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_active":false,"_exactmetrics_sitenote_note":"","_exactmetrics_sitenote_category":0,"_bluesky_dont_syndicate":"","_bluesky_syndication_accounts":"","_bluesky_syndication_text":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2642","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"amp_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2642","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2642"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2642\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2643,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2642\/revisions\/2643"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2642"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2642"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2642"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}