{"id":2351,"date":"2018-03-27T23:14:16","date_gmt":"2018-03-27T23:14:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/?p=2351"},"modified":"2018-03-27T23:14:16","modified_gmt":"2018-03-27T23:14:16","slug":"rude-reluctant","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/2018\/03\/27\/rude-reluctant\/","title":{"rendered":"rude, reluctant"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was rude to someone today.<\/span><\/p>\n

Now, I might seethe with an undying contempt and hatred for all of humanity (sorry), but I don\u2019t let that out. \u00a0I keep that contempt locked up nice and tight with only the occasional glare or growl slipping out. <\/span><\/p>\n

But, today, I was rude.<\/span><\/p>\n

I was at work having a full on Monday (note, today is actually Tuesday), when my cell phone rang. \u00a0I didn\u2019t recognize the number, but answered it anyway. <\/span><\/p>\n

The caller asked for \u201cBecky\u201d and I sighed and told him it was the wrong number. \u00a0It was actually with a bit of relief – \u201cYea! Not a robot calling me about my student loans!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

His reply was, \u201cOh, sorry, maybe you can help me\u2026\u201d and went on with a spiel about donating money to something.<\/span><\/p>\n

I honestly don\u2019t know what I was supposed to donate to – I was way too angry. \u00a0When he finally paused, I replied:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u201cYou start off with a bait and switch and then expect me to help you? \u00a0Are you kidding? There’s no way,\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

I pulled the phone away from my ear and just as I hit the button to hang up the call I heard him say, \u201cHave a nice day,\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

And then I felt bad. \u00a0He was just some guy trying to do a job. \u00a0A shitty<\/em><\/strong> job, but a job nonetheless. I could have been a lot more rude – didn\u2019t even swear – but, still\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Now, there\u2019s no earthly way I\u2019m going to support whatever he was asking me to support.\u00a0 I mean, if it starts off with a ploy, it\u2019s going to go downhill into some really shady territory.\u00a0 \u00a0But, I\u2019m kinda hoping he calls back so I can apologize. \u00a0And then get taken off the damn list.<\/span><\/p>\n

—————-<\/span><\/p>\n

It\u2019s getting close to Maker Faire time and I\u2019ve been on the fence about participating again. \u00a0As in, I\u2019ve known about the sign-up deadline for months and I\u2019m less than a week away. Not normally how I roll, but it\u2019s been a tough call.<\/span><\/p>\n

I like demonstrating origami and teaching people – and I like talking about and sharing my craft. \u00a0But the Maker Faire last year was rough. It was about 8 hours of folding with kid after kid at my table – usually 3 deep – and no breaks. <\/span><\/p>\n

I was exhausted when I was done. \u00a0My hands ached and my back was sore from leaning over the table. \u00a0And even though my friends and family stopped by, I didn\u2019t really have much time to interact with them. \u00a0So, even with the crowds, it was a little lonely – especially when it was time to take down my display and load up my car.<\/span><\/p>\n

There\u2019s a little magic when a crane\u2019s wings flap the first time or a cube comes together – but…yeah\u2026 it was rough.<\/span><\/p>\n

So, making the actual decision to slog through that enormous registration form – seriously, my Humanities in the Western Tradition final wasn\u2019t as rough – was not something I\u2019d do lightly. \u00a0If I was going to do this, I was going to do it well and go all in.<\/span><\/p>\n

In the end, it came down to two things.<\/span><\/p>\n

    \n
  1. I have a tendency to \u201cnot\u201d – as in, just not do things. \u00a0I don\u2019t know you could call me an introvert – see: polar bear jump, AANR member, silly hats, kilts, etc. – but if given a choice about participating in things I\u2019d usually just rather not. \u00a0And I\u2019m trying to work on that.<\/span><\/li>\n
  2. I could just sit in my living room and fold paper while watching a DVD. \u00a0And then post a picture on my website. And that could be the limit of my interaction. \u00a0Or I could get out there and share this with\u2026 scores\u2026of easily distracted kids who really just want to walk away with something free. \u00a0Sigh.<\/span><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    So, last night, I signed up. \u00a0If I don\u2019t get selected, well, I\u2019ll be okay with that. If I do, well, I\u2019ll be ready. \u00a0I\u2019ve got stacks of paper and plenty of models to demo. I\u2019ll insist on a break for lunch or the bathroom as needed. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

    And I\u2019ll teach a whole bunch of people something really cool and watch them light up.<\/span><\/p>\n

    I\u2019ll be exhausted, but it\u2019s the right thing to do.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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