{"id":2329,"date":"2018-01-21T03:09:38","date_gmt":"2018-01-21T03:09:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/?p=2329"},"modified":"2018-01-21T03:09:38","modified_gmt":"2018-01-21T03:09:38","slug":"no-float-for-me-anxiety-go-take-a-hike","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/2018\/01\/21\/no-float-for-me-anxiety-go-take-a-hike\/","title":{"rendered":"no float for me, anxiety, go take a hike"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today was to have been my oldest niece\u2019s birthday, but her little sister has a bad case of the flu and my sister\u2019s house is effectively quarantined.<\/span><\/p>\n

So, with a Saturday and no plans, I figured this would be a perfect time to try a sensory deprivation chamber. \u00a0I\u2019ve been wanting to try one and found one in the area that a friend of mine had gone to.\u00a0 Yesterday morning,\u00a0 I called to make an appointment and left a message. \u00a0When they called back I found that they were booked solid on every Saturday til the middle of February. <\/span><\/p>\n

Apparently, I had underestimated the regional appeal for floating in a tank of salt water in the dark.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m on call for jury duty next week so I couldn\u2019t really plan for an evening after work, so I just told them I would check back later and reschedule.<\/span><\/p>\n

And I was bummed. Disproportionately so. \u00a0This past week has been a rough one and I was really stressed out. \u00a0The idea of the quiet – really quiet – was so appealing and when it didn\u2019t work out, well, I didn\u2019t do well.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been anxious about jury duty.\u00a0 Not the task so much, but the uncertainty. \u00a0I don\u2019t do well with uncertainty. \u00a0Do, or do not – like Yoda said. So tough to plan. And I freaking love to have a plan.<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019ve also been anxious about taking part in a Nielsen Radio survey. \u00a0Which, I know, shouldn\u2019t be a big deal, but I\u2019ve been a little obsessed about the accuracy.\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\n

NPR is counting on me.<\/span><\/p>\n

And the music playing over the loudspeaker at the pool this week – well, it was so shitty that I changed the stroke I was using just so I\u2019d be under water more. It was soooo bad, I can’t even tell you.\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

This all came to a head last night and I got a low-grade anxiety attack last – to the point where Jim told me to \u201cgo take a hike\u201d. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Well, he said it nicer than that and he knows that sometimes a good walk is all I need to settle myself down.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bright and early this morning I was up and kilted – and headed to a local park for a walk.<\/span><\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t get cold – in face, at one point, I had to take my scarf, hat, and gloves off since I overheated in the sun.<\/span><\/p>\n

I did, however, have a bit of a problem with chafing. \u00a0Should have powdered my nethers before I headed out – lesson learned.<\/span><\/p>\n

The hike helped, some. \u00a0There were a few loud people that I could have done without, but I got a good hike in and didn\u2019t get lost this time.<\/span><\/p>\n

I think I\u2019ll be better once this coming week is done. \u00a0And I think need to take some time and read the rest of \u201cThe Subtle Art of Not Giving F*ck\u201d. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I\u2019m giving way too many.<\/span><\/p>\n

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