{"id":1826,"date":"2015-07-21T01:53:55","date_gmt":"2015-07-21T01:53:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/?p=1826"},"modified":"2015-07-21T01:53:55","modified_gmt":"2015-07-21T01:53:55","slug":"friends-folding-twitter-anxiety","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thunderofwade.com\/blog\/2015\/07\/21\/friends-folding-twitter-anxiety\/","title":{"rendered":"friends, folding, twitter, anxiety"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Last Wednesday, met up with two other couples for a fancier meal than I&#8217;m generally used to. We were on schedule &#8211; but hadn&#8217;t factored in summer in Ohio &#8211; i.e. EVERY FREAKING ROAD WE WERE ON WAS A MESS OF CONSTRUCTION. I mean, seriously? W.T.F. And this included the turnpike &#8211; we should have gotten a discount for that mess.<\/p>\n<p>Dinner was good (though I had to work to &#8220;bland it down&#8221; to my level) and the conversation was fun &#8211; but the day kinda caught up with me before we were done.<\/p>\n<p>Saturday morning, I got up early and worked on the yard for a while. And then I laid out in the sun and just relaxed. I would have said &#8220;chilled&#8221; but it was super hot out and I just lay there and sweat. I&#8217;m not generally good at inactivity, but I think I needed it.<\/p>\n<p>On Saturday evening, I had a really fun dinner with some of my very best friends. Good food, awesome conversation &#8211; made it fun for a bit to be an adult again. Not very serious adults, mind you, but adults enjoying an evening out. I made some <a href=\"http:\/\/thunderofwade.tumblr.com\/post\/124620510109\/canterbury-bells\">origami flowers<\/a> for the birthday girl and overall had a really nice evening.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;-<br \/>\nOn Sunday, one of my friends brought over her grandson for an origami lesson. He&#8217;s nine and already knew some stuff &#8211; and was prepared to be bored with my beginner&#8217;s lesson.<\/p>\n<p>Not one to be outdone, I took it up a notch and together we did some more complex modular pieces. And ate brownies. For over two hours.<\/p>\n<p>My hands were a little tired and I think his brain was full from trying to remember all we covered. He wants to come back, though &#8211; think he found a kindred spirit.<br \/>\n&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been trying to tweet more while still following my &#8220;only haiku&#8221; rule. It&#8217;s been challenging to distill something into that very small pattern, but I think it&#8217;s a good brain exercise. Of course, the most clever one I came up with didn&#8217;t show up on facebook so only my scant twitter followers saw it. It was a haiku &#8211; but with binary numbers! As Homer Simpson would say:<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Nerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Anyway, in case you missed it, <a href=\"https:\/\/twitter.com\/aws699\/status\/622012168179990528\">Binary Haiku<\/a>\u00a0.<\/p>\n<p>&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;&#8212;-<br \/>\nFor as much fun as I had over the weekend, I had a rough night Sunday. I had nightmares of being back in college and not knowing where or when any of my classes were. Nor did I have the right books or have any of the homework done, or know any of the professors.<\/p>\n<p>Typical anxiety dream &#8211; followed up Monday by a stressful and stupid day. Much of the day was fixing problems that I had already fixed once before &#8211; including one that should have been wrapped up literally years ago.<\/p>\n<p>In video game terms, I was ready to rage-quit several times. Just turn off the day and go do something else. I lasted until my usual quitting time and when I got home I got changed and laid out in the sun for about 45 minutes. Just me, my headphones (to drown out the traffic and neighborhood dogs) and my own patch of sky.<\/p>\n<p>It helped, some, but I&#8217;m still so on edge. We still don&#8217;t know anything and pretty much anyone could be terminated to fit a spot on the budget.<\/p>\n<p>So, I&#8217;m torn between trying to accomplish something significant in case I&#8217;m one of the ones that gets let go, not wanting to start anything really long term, and being ground down by the day to day.<\/p>\n<p>One of the committees we&#8217;re on is working on a letter to the president of the university to ask for some clarification and a timeline. I kinda doubt we&#8217;ll get anything &#8211; there&#8217;s been plenty of opportunity for clarity &#8211; but I guess we need to feel like we&#8217;re trying.<\/p>\n<p>Time to close up shop and hit the sack.<\/p>\n<p>Just&#8230; tired.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Last Wednesday, met up with two other couples for a fancier meal than I&#8217;m generally used to. 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