I took myself for a walk this evening, been in kind of a weird mood and needed to clear my head. \u00a0Walking usually does it for me, but even after an hour and a half I wasn’t any clearer. \u00a0It did help me acknowledge a truth – my previous post was bitchy. \u00a0I still stand by what I said, but it was bitchy.<\/p>\n
I stopped at the bank and at Dairy Queen to have a highly disappointing ice cream cone – then walked around the park for a while. \u00a0I’ve been feeling… well… a bit empty. \u00a0Like my emotions are fireworks that quickly fade to leave an empty night sky – or just a vague bit of smoke. \u00a0Can’t seem to hold any particular emotion for very long in any direction.\u00a0Feels weird.<\/p>\n
The only one I seem to be able to sustain for any length of time is irritated. \u00a0I seem to be increasingly good at that one. Today it was my co-worker, yesterday it was the 7 swimmers that shared my lane at the pool – and the swim team that took up the rest of the pool and crowded us – and the guy at the front desk who cheerfully acknowledged that the swimsuit water extractor was broken, had been broken, and was not going to be fixed anytime soon.<\/p>\n
Yeah, I’m all over irritated. \u00a0But it doesn’t last. \u00a0I had a good evening yesterday and a nice time last weekend, but when left to my own devices, I slide back to zero. \u00a0I have no idea if this is normal or not or if I’m just being far too introspective – but I gotta tell you it’s pretty weird from in here.<\/p>\n
I’ve got a full day tomorrow of work and then plans in the evening. \u00a0I’m hoping I can shake this void-like funk soon.<\/p>\n
It’s getting late for me, but I don’t really feel like sleeping yet. \u00a0Maybe some games or a little more music before I call it a night.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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